I am the most impatient person on earth!

Waiting for anything absolutely drives me batty. I hate being this way and I try and try not to, but can't help myself. I know without a doubt that God has a plan for our family as to what job Joe gets & if we move or not. But it is killing me not to know what is going to happen. The biggest thing that I want to know is if we are moving or not. We have a good bit to do in order for the house to be ready to be put on the market. I could live with not knowing where as long as I just know yes or no.

Joe got the call for a second interview from the company in SC! The second interview from FL was postponed. Both companies said something about next week, just don't have a definite date for either one yet. We really don't have a preference yet, beyond staying where we are.

My biggest hope is that where ever we are we are able to continue living the way we do now. As far as being able own a decent home & a little bit of land.


A new week...

What happened to the warm weather? Just a few days ago it was in the 80's and this morning we work up to ice on the windshield. It has warmed up some this afternoon, but nowhere near what it was. We were really starting to enjoy wearing shorts.

Today has not been so bad as last week. Matthew had speech therapy this morning as usual and did very well. It is amazing how far he has come along in the last 6 months. After his birthday in a few weeks he won't qualify for the Babies Can't Wait program. It will be up to the school district as to whether he gets any more speech, unless we can find the money to pay out of pocket. I know that when he starts preschool in Sept. his vocabulary is just going to explode. Right now he is only around other adults & his 11 yr. old brother.

Joe found out that 3 of the companies he interviewed with liked him. He has a second interview on Wed. with a company in Lee FL. Don't know if the other 2 are going to call for second interviews or not yet. One of the jobs is in SC and the other in AL. Also has a friend trying to get him a civilian job on the base here. We will just have to wait and see what God has planned for us. In some ways I would like to stay where we are and in some ways I am ready to move again.

Tonight is swim practice for Jared. I wish we could figure out some way to make that child more competitive. I'm glad that he is bettering his time at each meet, but would like for him to at least care about whether he wins or not. Is there a way to make someone competitive or is that something that you are born with?


This week has sucked...

This week has sucked. It started early Monday morning. On top of everything else we are all sick. I HATE being sick!!!! We were doing so good at staying well until now.

My 78 yr. old grandmother fell and broke her hip. The doctor was able to repair it with surgery. Given her state of mind, her physical health and her low tolerance for pain the best we can hope for is that she is going to be in a wheelchair the rest of her life. According to what I found online about hip fractures older people who are sedentary have an extremely high mortality rate the first year. Momma has been in the bed almost 24/7 for the last year. As much as I hate to say it I don't feel like she has the fortitude or gumption to live too much longer.
We are all sick. I hate being sick!!!!

Joe left yesterday morning to go to Atlanta. He will hopefully be back tonight. He went up there for a job conference/fair. He will be interviewing with 5-6 companies today. I keep telling him that God has a plan for our family and everything is going to work out. I am trying to put on a brave face with him, but I do worry that we are going to end up losing. I don't want him to be worried about me so I continue on with being brave. I know that God will not reveal his plan for us until we are able to put it completely in his hands and I really am trying, but that is not something that comes easy to either one of us.

And finally Jared is flunking 3 of his academic subjects in school. How can a child who is so smart & bright flunk out of school? He has 1 month to get his grades up to passing or he is going to be repeating 6th grade. As it is even if he manages to pass this year I don't think they will put him in gifted classes next year.

I hope that the rest of this week go much better than the start has.


Another Sunday...

God is good all the time! We had a swim meet 2 hrs from home yesterday and our vehicle wouldn't start . Didn't have time to figure out what was wrong with it so we took the other one. Well after getting home Joe determined it was a low battery causing the problem. I am so grateful that it didn't happen on the way to or from the meet, but here at home.

We spent yesterday at a swim meet in Daytona Beach with our oldest. I think that he really enjoys swimming, but unfortunately he doesn't have the drive to win like we would like. Due to his Lymphedema swimming is the only sport that he can participate in. We aren't concerned about whether he wins his heats or not, we would just like to see him trying harder. He is getting faster in some of events and slower in others.

I have to get some things done today. Namely laundry & washing. I need to get lots of things done around here, but they won't get done today. Our house has gotten so full of clutter that I absolutely can't stand it. All the clutter is making me literally crazy. Sometimes I wish we could move. There is no better way of cleaning out crap & clutter than moving to a new home.


2005 Goals & Resolutions...

Here are my goals & resolutions for 2005. I can honestly say that I am not getting anywhere quickly with these. I have got to get more motivated to work on all these things!!

1. Finish DH military album (he is suppose to retire this summer). I am struggling with working on this project. I want it to be something special for him to look at and enjoy remember all these years.
2. Get caught up I am about I am probably 4 yrs behind right now. I have not been working on this the way that I should. Some times I wonder why I scrapbook. Does anyone really care? Will my boys ever bother with looking back at our memories? I think these questions are why I struggle with continuing on.
3. Work on my genealogy research and start a heritage album. Who knew that genealogy research would be so time consuming & expensive. I started this because I recently realized that I know absolutely nothing about my father's side and I know very little about my mother's side.
4. Get all my digital pics organized in my new Adobe Elements 3.0 organizer program. Have I lost my mind?
5. Get all the pics we don't have negatives for scanned. need a new scanner
6. Use up my stash, only purchase the basics as I run out. I have been using a lot of the stash. I have spent so much money over the years and just collecting all this stuff. Must use what is hanging around taking up space! I loved all these things when I bought them and I don't worry about what the new trend is so that isn't an issue for using this stuff.
7. Get brave enough to try and get published. I finally submitted a covered journal through scrapsubmit

I am shooting for at least 1 page per day. For 365 pages this year.
Pages completed: 7

Non scrapping:
1. Exercise more - HaHa Who am I kidding?
2. Lose 40 lbs. - -2 lbs
3. Continue clearing clutter & organizing house - Motivated Moms working great
4. Pay down debt - This is a big issue for us. We are so far in the hole & need to very much climb out of it soon.


Another month...

Another month has come and gone. Here it is already the 5th of April. Time is going by too quickly!

We made it through spring break last week, but I must admit that I was ready for school to be back in yesterday. Don't know how we will handle summer break. The kids fight & argue constantly which of course sets mommy on edge before the day is over.

I'm still working on Joe's career scrapbook. I am really struggling with doing these pages. I guess knowing that this phase of life is coming to an end and we will be starting over with his new career is making it harder to do the album. Military life is all we've known for over 20 years and the change to civilian life is going to be very difficult for both of us. I know that God will provide for us; in that I have no doubt. But it is still a struggle for us to let go.

Military life is so different from anything else. For those who have not experienced it there is no way to explain so that you could understand. It is something that you may not like, but you learn to live it and it becomes a part of who and what you are. You speak a different language from civilians and live a completely different life. Some times it can be the most difficult life to live, but you do live & survive it and it makes you stronger. Stronger even when you don't realize that you are.