I've been trying to find a part-time job which has been a challenge. It is hard to find something that I can still have time to be with my family when they are home. I don't want to miss out on this time. Working full-time when J (our oldest) was small I missed out on all the field trips and school activities. With M I have tried to be there for all the things I missed out on. He only has 2 more years of elementary school so I don't have much time left to enjoy these things with him.
I'm still trying to figure out how to dress myself. In my 20s I was stylish and always getting compliments on my fashion sense, in my 30s I just pretty much gave up after gaining about 60 pounds, and now in my 40s I'm having to relearn what is stylish and how to make it work with my body. I'm so afraid of dressing too old or too young and struggling with what is the right thing.
There is also a list of things we want/need to do to our home. I have gotten rid of a ton of stuff and know that I want to go with a more streamlined and clean decorating style. The list just keeps getting longer and longer. Our home is 12 years old and everything in it other than the paint on the walls is what the builder put in. We have only lived here for the last 6 years and have changed out nothing in the house except for the ceiling fans as they have stopped working.
I still think about crafting occasionally and I'm not sure where I want to go with it. The only crafting things I have worked on in the last couple of years has been to crochet several blankets for Project Linus and to make several cards. I keep saving projects to do but never feel like I want to do them. It can get overwhelming seeing all these projects online and in magazines & books that look so great.
I also spend a lot of time reading. Seventeen books so far this year with a goal of 70 by December 31.So see I have too many things in my head.
Everything I read about blogging says you should focus your blog in one directions whether that be fashion or crafting or whatever. The problem is my life and mind is not focused in just one direction. So trying to focus my blog on just one things is not working for me. If I am going to continue blogging then I need to figure out how to make it work for me. Please bear with me while I'm trying to figure out how to do this.